Today is a dark day. My body tells me long before my mind knows that I am struggling. My breath becomes shallow and I have difficulty taking a full breath.
So what did I do? Honestly, I kept myself busy and tried to block out the voices in my head. What did the voices tell me? They said I’m not enough. They said I am not doing enough. They said I should be like _______ and then there were a plethora of names that filled that blank.
Until I sat down to write this post. And then I paused. I closed my eyes and faced the accusations. And as I did that, I noticed Jesus sitting next to me. He was waiting. Waiting for me to come and sit with him. And he spoke to me. And this is what he said:
Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.Matthew 10:28-30
My breathing slowed. My heart stilled. Strength restored.
You know, he’s waiting for you too.