Honestly? I never intended to end up where I am now. I started on a path of goodness, truth, integrity and honor. I desired openness and accountability, to impact my community in positive ways. And yet, here I am in a world far removed from where I started. A place of deception and secrets, infidelity and disgrace, craftiness and corruption. How did I get here?
It happens one turn at a time, one step at a time. It isn’t generally an intentioned leap from where I started to this place I am now. The psalmist highlights this movement so well.
1Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers…Psalm 1:1
Notice the progression the psalmist utilizes to expose the problem. I started out well, but then along the way I met someone who introduced me to under-the-table methods of getting what I wanted. At first, I only listened. Eventually, I grew curious so I paused. In that pausing, I created an opportunity, a vulnerability to be influenced by corrupt thinking. From this place of pausing, I take a seat and explore possibilities and solutions designed to undermine others and cause pain and distress.
This isn’t where I want to be; this isn’t where I set out to go!
Perhaps you resonate with this progression away from honest living. You find yourself in a dark place with few options. There is a way home, out of the darkness. Will it be easy? No.
Strongholds gain strength in the isolation of secrecy. The first step to freedom is to tell someone – tell him everything. Expose the place where you are and allow him to shine a light into the recesses of the cave. The way back to freedom and light will take time, but this is the place to start.